“You have made us for yourself, and our hearts are restless, until they can find rest in You.”- St. Augustine
by Jel Tordesillas
Lent comes and goes every year like clockwork. Together with my family, I do the traditional Bisita Iglesia and Easter Vigil, and other Holy Week activities mostly in our parish.
As I come from a very religious family, I have no choice but to do these church activities.
But what meaning do these things have if my heart is not in it?
This year, I remind myself that these aren’t merely church activities. They are gifts from God reminding me of what God had to go through so that I could live for Heaven. Before Christ died and rose for the world, Heaven was out of my reach. Now that attaining it has become a gift so generously given by God, what am I doing?
Here are some of the things that I have reflected on. Maybe it can help you in your Holy Week contemplation.
Why do I sometimes look at hearing mass and saying the rosary as a chore that I painstakingly have to go through instead of something I should be all to joyous to do?
Why do I sometimes think that my religion is holding me back from living, when it fact is something that should help me live my life in the fullest possible way?
Why do I sometimes feel like putting Christ in a drawer, just listening to his voice whenever I feel like it?
Why do I feel like I’m sometimes more attached to my worldly life than my spiritual life?
Lent is a time to remind us that Christ should be the center of our lives. It’s as black and white as that, there is no grey. We cannot defend ourselves by saying that, “We are only human.” We are humans who are children of God. We are humans who can be lifted by God to be spiritually good and worthy to be called his children. Yes, being human makes us week, but our spirit can make us holy.
When we choose to listen to God, rather than the evil in the world, everything falls into place, everything makes sense. It’s home.
Like the prodigal son who went away because he fell in love with worldly things, we tend to run away too. Now, Lent is giving us a chance to return to God. To stop, examine our lives, and ask ourselves—have I strayed away from my home?
What kind of life am I living?
Am I living the kind of life that Christ lovingly died for?
Have a blessed Holy Week everyone.